The harder I try to hold on

So I realize that it's sort of been a long time, and I never finished writing about my trip. It was hard to find enough time to get on a computer and type up everything that was going on... Then when I got home and wanted to get everything up to date, my grandmother got sick and before we knew it, she had passed away and then I ended up in Provo only a few crazy days later. Yeah, I had a busy month! Now I'm all settled into my new apartment, complete with a freshly painted closet (which I am very proud of) and almost done with two weeks of school. Time is flying and the harder I try to hold on to it, the farther away it gets. I wish that I could stop it for one day just to try to catch up, not really counting on it ;) but it's a nice thought. I should be sleeping since I have a really busy day tomorrow, but for some reason I'd rather be doing this... not sure why, I don't really have anything specific to say.

Random thought of the day: Today I realized that I never think of my life as hard, ever. No matter what is going on, it's always been 'normal' for me. I think that is a gift the Lord has given me, to never see what my trials are while I am experiencing them. Otherwise I would be a crazy mess! I can look back now on past experiences and see how they have changed me and tested my faith, and that is what gives me strength. Seeing what I have done tells me what I can do in the future.